More often there is one word for the thing which stops me-- fear. Small word big impact. Over time I figured out something about that small word with the big impact, the fastest way through it is to surrender to it. Afraid of bridges? Find some, or at least one, and cross over it-- back and forth many times. Drive over them, bike over them, walk to the middle and just stand on them. Dream about building them-- imagine climbing to the highest point on one and then jump off, watch yourself fly. Soon, the impact of that fear fades. Similarly with the fears keeping us from cherished desires locked deep in the secret chamber of our heartsoul.
For the past few months a certain tune ran through my thoughts like my life “theme song.” One might not think of it in these modern times but it plays in my head every day. This song has been around since 1896. It was written by a Mr. Judson W. Van DeVenter, an art teacher born December 5, 1855 in Dundee, Michigan. The song, I Surrender All, is a hymn based on a passage from the New Testament--
In the same way, any of you who does not give up everything he has cannot be my disciple. Luke 14:33.
Most commentaries interpret this verse as the Cost of Following the Life of Jesus. While there are mysteries about Jesus, we know how his life started and we know how it ended. So to surrender and live that life is not a big risk, and we can plan and prepare for what we know. So perhaps this Surrender All is about something else. In the dictionary surrender is defined as the act of giving up, yielding, abandoning, relinquishing, or resigning something or to something. What if there was something even greater in this seemingly simple act—what if all this surrender is about what keeps us from following our heart? For me this theme song is reminding me that every speck of this beautiful Universe wants me to yield to my heart. Give up the struggle and let go, be a disciple of my life. So here I go I am climbing to that highest point and jumping into a wind that will allow me to fly free and then set me down in my next life learning and truth telling spot to wait for the next good breeze. Then its take a deep breath and surrender again…
